My first ever post! :)

Thank you Jesus, for all your grace and mercy. For loving me through it all, and for holding my hand even when I didn't want any help. I love you!

So, this is my first ever post on my first ever blog! It's exciting! I don't have to pretend or perform for anyone. Quite freeing actually! I love it! So.. I guess it would be great to have people actually subscribe, cause i have a lot of stuff to say and a lot of tips to give.. but whatever.. I wanted this to share my inner-most thoughts, and contribute to anyone anywhere, in any way I can..

Maybe I should start with explaining the name of my blog: Lyddite.  My name is Lydia. And Lyddite is the name of an explosive. I took this as a challenge to redefine explosive. I'm a pacifist, I believe in peace and non-violence. so it's not a violence thing.. I love talking to people, meeting new people, and exploring new things. I like to expand my horizons in every way possible. I'm colorful, I'm loud, and I'm... explosive!!! :)

Yesterday was Good Friday. I always wondered why it was called "Good" Friday. I mean the day that Jesus was tortured and crucified.. how can we call that good? Well that's because without this day, we would all be lost.. Lost in our sin, lost in our hopelessness, and we would be judged to standards that we have no hope to fulfill. Would I have liked it if Jesus could have not gone through this? Of course!!! But for us to be redeemed of all our sins once and for all, for there to be no need for sin offerings and for there to be no need for a human priest between us and God, this was the only way. Jesus did this willingly and He did it lovingly. The second He died on that cross, He defeated satan and paid the ultimate price for all of our sins. We have the right to salvation and the promise of Heaven. He is the ransom for our souls. The purest, most perfect, ultimate sacrifice. We are not worthy, but He loves us. We find it so hard to forgive people for stupid stuff, yet when He was on that cross, suffering unimaginable pain, suffering humiliation, and anguish at the thought being filled with all of our sins, He still asked God to Forgive them.. The very people who where unjustly putting him through all of that.. I still can't imagine that kind of love.. All of this can be summed up in this song:

You Love Me Anyway - Sidewalk Prophets

beautiful lyrics. This song really touches my heart.. So anyway, I was just pondering all these things. Yesterday towards the end of our Good Friday service, our pastor told us to think about how the disciples would have felt when Jesus died. How horrible and hopeless they would have felt. They thought He had departed from them forever. That everything was gone, and lost forever. How horrible it must have felt to think that God was no longer with you.. Man.. I couldn't even imagine.. All I know is.. Life sucks! But it's impossible to lead it in the right way without God, and I would never want to..